conscience making cowards ... or not

To distinguish again between loss of journey and narrative horror: When you experience the first, you are paralysed by the impossibility of your hopes, the wrongness of your desires, the iniquity, perhaps, of your deeds. The latter, in contradistinction, is horror at the thought that others are privy to the impossibility, wrongness, iniquity, of your hopes, desires, deeds. One is about self evaluation, the other, unwilled self revelation; or fear of same. So ... (don't know what comes next ...