23.3.06

conscience making cowards ... or not

To distinguish again between loss of journey and narrative horror: When you experience the first, you are paralysed by the impossibility of your hopes, the wrongness of your desires, the iniquity, perhaps, of your deeds. The latter, in contradistinction, is horror at the thought that others are privy to the impossibility, wrongness, iniquity, of your hopes, desires, deeds. One is about self evaluation, the other, unwilled self revelation; or fear of same. So ... (don't know what comes next ...

2 comments:

michaelpsteven said...

Lately, I've been suffering from both.
Perhaps you can't experience one, without experiencng the other?

Martin Edmond said...

maybe ... but MarĂ­as seems to be saying that some who suffer the horrors really only care about being found out, & will happily sin or whatever you want to call it so long as nobody else knows ...